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Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Black Swan
I recently saw the new movie "Black Swan". Before this I was a little off the wagon eating sooo much and gained 5 pounds. after watching this movie i got so thinspired that it has been easier. I'm doing a fast right now. I drink water all day and sometimes juice. I allow myself one of the orange fruit cups when i'm feeling faint. I have already lost the 5pounds plus an extra 2. (:
Thursday, December 9, 2010
yayyyy
Ahh i'm so proud of myself these days. I am on a new antidepresent that also happens to be a hungar supresent. I havent been hungry for 4 days. I eat the occasionall fruit and veggy to stay safe and take lots of vitamins but its such a relieve to not even crave food.
down 10 pounds, 8 inches
down 10 pounds, 8 inches
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Favorite Thinspo songs right now
Paper Bag - Fiona Apple
Eyesore - Maria Mena
Jenny, Your Barely AliveRilo Kiley
Me & Mia - Ted Leo And The Pharmacists
90210 - Wale
Eyesore - Maria Mena
Jenny, Your Barely AliveRilo Kiley
Me & Mia - Ted Leo And The Pharmacists
90210 - Wale
Monday, November 29, 2010
First time with Mia
I find it's easyier to keep my food intake down if i drink coffee and have smokes in the morining. But I hate those days when my body is just starving for food. I ate more then i would have liked to this after noon wich lead me to somthing else... I did my first purge today. I'm not sure how i feel about it. I've always seen myself as a strickly ana girl who sometimes dables with laxatives. To be honest it felt awesome..not the acutaul perge but the emptyness after. It was like my sins had been repented. It was almost a high. The end of a toothbrush worked like a charm and i drank alot of water before to smooth things along. I dont think this will be a regular thing, i would like to stay more anna, but mia is now welcome.
I continue to look at thinspo religiously. -2 lbs today
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
First Post
I WILL REACH PERFECTION
Heyy lovelys, this is my first post! This blog will be along for the journey with me as i go through my strugles with wieght and control. It's more of a diary for me and a way to reach out to other girls and boys a like. After months of on and off control I have finally got a hold on it. It has been ten days and i have lost 4 inchs. Its a small amount, but the effort put in has been average -minimal. Yesterday I started to grasp more controle over my appitite. The power was intoxicating. I woke up, i ate some cucumber diped in 1/2 fat ceacer. made coffee, had a smoke. The smoke gave me a head rush, that was my reward. Did not have any craving for food for a solid 3 hours. I hate a cracker with some cheese. Drank another cup of coffe and had another smoke. Later Ate one pork chop with a bit of sauce. The feeling of wakeing up after a successful day like that is amazing. Your stomach doesn't hurt because, from lack of food it shrinks and requires less to fill it.
I am not in any way glamourising or endorsing eating disorders, this is just an online diary of what is happening.
Heyy lovelys, this is my first post! This blog will be along for the journey with me as i go through my strugles with wieght and control. It's more of a diary for me and a way to reach out to other girls and boys a like. After months of on and off control I have finally got a hold on it. It has been ten days and i have lost 4 inchs. Its a small amount, but the effort put in has been average -minimal. Yesterday I started to grasp more controle over my appitite. The power was intoxicating. I woke up, i ate some cucumber diped in 1/2 fat ceacer. made coffee, had a smoke. The smoke gave me a head rush, that was my reward. Did not have any craving for food for a solid 3 hours. I hate a cracker with some cheese. Drank another cup of coffe and had another smoke. Later Ate one pork chop with a bit of sauce. The feeling of wakeing up after a successful day like that is amazing. Your stomach doesn't hurt because, from lack of food it shrinks and requires less to fill it.
I am not in any way glamourising or endorsing eating disorders, this is just an online diary of what is happening.
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